Heartfilled minds.

Welcome to my blog, my little place on the big internet.

I am Iris, I am 23 and I live in the Netherlands. I believe in God and I believe in Jesus but religion is not 100% my thing. I study Applied Physics and I am currently doing my final master’s research.

I love taking pictures and I have my own small photography business. Sometimes I write short stories and poems and I am also learning to play the guitar. I am always singing (even in my sleep sometimes) and being quiet is something I’m not good at.

I have a few illnesses and am disabled. I have Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, which causes my Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Irritable Bowel Syndrome, Migraines and Raynaud’s. I also have ADHD and a whiplash and I am self-diagnosed with POTS and dysautonomia.

My mental health has been all over the place but I am mentally healthy now.

So yeah, I try to blog about my life but it's mostly about my illnesses because I am an ill and that makes up most of my life.

**What you are viewing now, is my life, in its purest form. You may not understand the rambling of my mind in the form of a few words or a picture, but that is okay because I do. **

Creativity is the air that I breathe; it's in the words that I say, the moves that I make, the songs that I sing. Please accept me for that, because I have.

I hope you like what you are about to see.

hopelessromanticismm asked: How'd the appts go?! Thinking of you!!

Thank you:) unfortunately they went terribly. The neurologist said they didn’t see anything on my mri (which I doubt) and told me it was just a tension headache. How that would cause all my other symptoms I don’t know, but sure. She told me I should go to a physical therapist and got rude when I told her that wasn’t working.

She then told me that I shouldn’t think my joints are loose and that things can move because I have EDS. No, vertebraes are completely unable to move according to her. Right.

Then she finished my hurting me by pinching my nerves, for no good use at all.

Oh And I just shouldn’t be scared to move my neck.

So time for a second opinion I guess.

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thisisableism:

[Image description: sign reads: Dear Guests, in conjunction with the 12th international congress of obesity, the escalators will not be operational from 09:30 to 16:00 hrs]
red3blog:

curiouskitty:

unapologeticfatty:

red3blog:

The 2014 International Congress of Obesity, a gathering of sober, serious “Obesity experts” from around the globe, reduced accessibility at their conference by shutting off escalators as a petty prank to make fun of fat people. Fat people who would never be welcome at their hate-fest in the first place, because being fat necessarily disqualifies us from being “experts” on fatness.
All of these frauds care about is Reddit-worthy gimmicks to shame fat people. “Obesity experts” are bullies who will never have the slightest bit of concern for the health and well-being of fat people.

Ableism AND fat shaming, fantastic. 

How is this ableist? They’re shutting down escalators, not elevators.

Requiring a wheelchair isn’t the only way to be mobility impaired. Many people can walk on a level surface, but not stairs. If you check the notes on this article, some people have shared their own experiences. An elevator could be a significantly worse option for them if it was out of the way, thus requiring a longer walk than the escalator. This option would be denied these people just so the conference can engage in a cheap, childish stunt to mock fat people. The reality is, such needs were clearly never even considered. Accessibility was of utterly no concern to these so-called experts and their giddy need to prank fat people.
So, ableist and fat shaming all at once.

thisisableism:

[Image description: sign reads: Dear Guests, in conjunction with the 12th international congress of obesity, the escalators will not be operational from 09:30 to 16:00 hrs]

red3blog:

curiouskitty:

unapologeticfatty:

red3blog:

The 2014 International Congress of Obesity, a gathering of sober, serious “Obesity experts” from around the globe, reduced accessibility at their conference by shutting off escalators as a petty prank to make fun of fat people. Fat people who would never be welcome at their hate-fest in the first place, because being fat necessarily disqualifies us from being “experts” on fatness.

All of these frauds care about is Reddit-worthy gimmicks to shame fat people. “Obesity experts” are bullies who will never have the slightest bit of concern for the health and well-being of fat people.

Ableism AND fat shaming, fantastic. 

How is this ableist? They’re shutting down escalators, not elevators.

Requiring a wheelchair isn’t the only way to be mobility impaired. Many people can walk on a level surface, but not stairs. If you check the notes on this article, some people have shared their own experiences. An elevator could be a significantly worse option for them if it was out of the way, thus requiring a longer walk than the escalator. This option would be denied these people just so the conference can engage in a cheap, childish stunt to mock fat people. The reality is, such needs were clearly never even considered. Accessibility was of utterly no concern to these so-called experts and their giddy need to prank fat people.

So, ableist and fat shaming all at once.

(Source: twitter.com)

in case anyone has dr.house like qualities....

dailylifewithchronicillness:

This is my list of current symptoms:

- extreme, unrelenting fatigue

- light-headedness, dizziness and spontaneous vertigo

- flushing and hot flashes

- stabbing ear infection like pain in my right ear

- pain in my neck, back of head, mostly focused on right side

- occipital headaches, tension…

I was re-reading some of your old posts and it scares me how much our symptoms are alike. I had my mri yesterday and today I have an appointment with my neurologist. 

  • Meat eater: what about the people who pick YOUR vegetables?
  • Vegan: Wait, what do you mean MY vegetables? don't you eat vegetables as well? What are you doing for these peoples rights other than using their struggles as a convenient "gotcha card" in attempts to silence vegans from talking about non human oppression? anything? And I'm guessing since you care so much about migrant workers in poor conditions, you are doing everything in your power to fight for those working in slaughterhouses and meat packing facilities since they are known to be one of the most dangerous and unsafe work places in the entire world, yes?
  • Meat eater: Well...
  • Vegan: Don't you think you should spend a little less time trying to belittle the efforts of people who are genuinely trying to cause the least amount of damage to animals, the environment and humans, and spend more time trying to make an effort of your own?
  • Meat eater: um, I mean...
  • Meat eater: bacon lol

juspeczyks:

Remember limewire

Remember sometimes getting the song you were actually looking for and sometimes getting an mp3 of bill clinton saying that he didn’t have sexual relations with that woman instead

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White people get so angry at the phrase, “You cannot be racist towards white people.”

I will never understand why.

Why are you so angry that you are being treated as actual human beings? You are not reduced to caricatures, but portrayed as characters. You are treated fairly, judged not by your skin tone, but by the ways that you carry yourselves, by your actions.

Why do you want to experience racism so badly? It is not fun to be mocked, dehumanized, attacked, killed, incarcerated simply for daring to exist. It is not fun to know nothing of your history or family because it was torn apart, whether through distance or death. It is not fun to hear, at every turn, comments reminding you of your lesser status as humans.

Do you really want to turn on the tv, open a magazine, watch a movie, play a video game, and not see yourself? Or, even better, to only see yourself as a criminal, as a drunk, a mocking stereotype, or as someone to be killed off? Or would you rather see fleshed out, well-written characters with lives and personalities and feelings? I know which I’d rather pick.

If I were a white person, the phrase, “You cannot be racist towards white people,” would be the best thing I could ever hear.

—i finally put some thoughts into words // thedeathcats (via taint3ed)

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My ritual before I go to bed:
- Put back dislocated toes on right foot
- Fix left subluxated ankle
- Put both knees back
- Put both hips back
- Put si joint where it belongs
- realign vertebrates
- Make sure ribs are okay
- Pop shoulders back in
- Put collarbone and sternum in place
- Fix neck
- Accept that jaw is subluxated
- Ignore elbows
- Put wrist back
- Relocate fingers

I’m a mess

My ritual before I go to bed:
- Put back dislocated toes on right foot
- Fix left subluxated ankle
- Put both knees back
- Put both hips back
- Put si joint where it belongs
- realign vertebrates
- Make sure ribs are okay
- Pop shoulders back in
- Put collarbone and sternum in place
- Fix neck
- Accept that jaw is subluxated
- Ignore elbows
- Put wrist back
- Relocate fingers

I’m a mess

I love butter salt.

the-ginga-nator:

I have no idea why but I’ve been eating it all day. I’m a huge salt/butter fan so the combination is great. The best part is that I HAVE NOT HAD ANY HEADACHES TODAY! So happy. I doubt there’s any correlation but I’m just glad I don’t have a headache.

It sounds like you might either have POTS or a potassium/sodium deficiency. Both cause headaches that go away by eating salt, and salt cravings.

Had the MRI today and it wasn’t too bad. It was difficult lying still enough because of my muscle spasms but we managed. It was really difficult to get back up though because of my orthostatic intolerance. The nurses looked quite shocked because I turned very pale from sitting up.

My POTS also was trough the roof today. My hr was at 100 sitting down and jumped to 130 standing up. The vascular internist called today to say that they’ve ruled out other causes of this so they’re pretty sure it’s dysautonomia/orthostatic intolerance/pots. They can’t officially diagnose me because it could also be caused by my medications. Since I’m not able to stop taking them they’ll put in my file that they suspect me having POTS. Hopefully that will be enough for other specialists to stop referring me to a cardiologist.

I had really bad salt cravings yesterday and then a POTS flare today(which was triggered by coffee), so I might have found a way to predict what my pots is going to do.

fox-feets:

Found this gem on my newsfeed. -_-

Yep, this is what all my christian friends are posting as well. I hate it. 

fox-feets:

Found this gem on my newsfeed. -_-

Yep, this is what all my christian friends are posting as well. I hate it. 

ecoinblack:

lotsofsnakes:

thankyouma-am:

Fun fact, not a yawn, popping it’s jaw back together after eating

this is indeed a yawn as he did not eat prior to this gif, as i am his owner

Fun fact: many EDS patients do pop our jaws back in after eating.

We’re snakes

ecoinblack:

lotsofsnakes:

thankyouma-am:

Fun fact, not a yawn, popping it’s jaw back together after eating

this is indeed a yawn as he did not eat prior to this gif, as i am his owner

Fun fact: many EDS patients do pop our jaws back in after eating.

We’re snakes

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